I try to silently grieve for what happened in Sendai. I know, a lot has been written about what happened in Japan and of the marvelous display of tenacity, order and display of discipline by the Japanese even on times such as these.
Since the quake and the tsunami hit last Friday, I kept thinking if I should still write about it. My voice is just one–and not necessarily an important and influential one at that–of the millions who have shared their thoughts and prayers for our Japanese brothers and sisters.
As someone whose life-long dream is to go to Japan, and whose life revolved around the culture and the beauty of the Land of the Rising Sun, I am lost for words on how to even comprehend the suffering and the tragedy that happened in my beloved country. I am not a Japanese citizen, and my meager existence and earnings as a salary woman does not guarantee that my grand aspirations of finally seeing Japan will come true in the near future. But, in spite of this, there’s this certain sadness and worry that I can’t comprehend.
I am not a Japanese citizen, but my love for this country is comparable to how I love my own. After the quake hit, I watch the news with bated breath, sometimes chewing on my fingernails–worried about the kids, the sick and the elderly. Seeing the houses and infrastructures swept away like debris, I can’t help but think about my distant relatives and vague acquaintances who must have experienced the tragedy first hand. These are the same people whom I envied almost most of my life for simply being there, for having a Japanese citizenship. Do I still envy them now? YES — more than ever — I am more in awe of the amazing spirit that these people displayed in times such as these. Their silent grace and strength was simply remarkable. Again and again, they never fail to amaze me, the silent outsider.
A smart-ass colleague teased me the other day if given the situation in Japan, would I still want to go there? I told her, why not? What Japan experienced is not an isolated incident. IT CAN HAPPEN TO ANYONE ANYWHERE. I asked her if the tragedy and the sad situation right now should be considered an excuse not to go, or should it be a “black mark” against Japan? The smarty-pants sensed that I am being sensitive about the issue and that I have not taken her question and ribbing quite well and has opted to shut her trap.
I told her, I have so much faith in Japan and in humanity to even lose hope…
I guess, FAITH is never an issue about nationality. At times like these when things simply happen, it is faith that buoy people to go forward and face the challenges of life head on. Who knows what tomorrow brings?
With all the things happening in the world right now, someone asked me if I will be afraid if the world will end tomorrow. I said yes, I will be afraid but I am also ready to face it if the time comes. I am kinda fatalistic and I always believe in living my life one day at a time, and making each day really count. Man, I refuse to let a day pass by without achieving something significant in my life. Imagine if that is even the case? Living life each day not just for the sake of doing it. I mean, to be honest: if I am to go tomorrow, I might as well live my life to the fullest right? No regrets, no what-ifs.
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