This is one of those days when I went to work to spend a few times crafting a speech that I have yet to finish. I have nothing else to do–finihing the unfinished speech is like pulling teeth and most of the words I come up with fails to get the deliver the gist of the story. So, here I am– the blinking cursor of the yet-forgotten speech teasing me with its annoying *blink-blink-blink*
When I left my previous work more than a month ago, it’s because I was worried that I’d be dead (due to stress and sama ng loob) before I turn 31. This is a not an over-statement. In my last year at my old company, I have grown a close and endearing relationship with the emergency room people of Makati Med. I’d have needle marks all over my arm, enough to put any druggie to shame due to the intravenuous drugs that had to be fed to my body each time I get stress attacks. I used to claim that I was clinically insane–spending 2009 in my old department validated this claim–yes, I had to see a psychiatrist the same year due to my "over exhaustion" I got acquainted with government-issued drugs (complete with the stamped "Dangerous Drugs" warning on my government-issued prescription note.
To say that I was emotionally and physically exhausted in my old department is an understatement.
In October 2009, I applied on a whim on this company that I just chanced upon while applying (guerilla-style) in Makati. I was on leave that day and I’ve decided to spend my "sick day" looking for a new work place.
The exam was easy, too easy in fact…and the series of interviews (I think I had almost 5 in all) wasn’t enough to faze me. Another company was interested in me and in the end, it came to a point on who would call first.
This company was the one who first offered me the position and me, eager and itching to bust out of the hell hole that was my previous department, needn’t think twice.
At first, I thought I could wing it that I’ll be starting in December. I figured this will give me enough time to say my goodbyes to the company that I’ve come to love so much (I loved my former company–it’ my department I can’t stand) and to the people who made leaving so difficult. In my three year stay there, I developed really close relationships with people across all departments and corporate standing (from the senior managers to the maintenance boys) and their friendship was the only thing that held me from leaving for 3 years.
But I had to start immediately. DUE TO THE HEAVY WORKLOAD waiting (I was told) so in a matter of 15 days– I was already reporting to my new job.
And here starts the tale of the new corporate bottom feeder.
For the longest time, I was one of the people calling the shots. One of the movers and shakers, as they say. But now, as all newbies, I am starting again from below. There are days when the work is heavy, it’s like reliving the stressful days of yore…but on some days — the inactivity will kill you.
I guess I am still lucky cos I am sharing my department with some of the most talented people I’ve met. Super PLUS points cos my current supervisor is a nice and like-minded individual who encourages us to do our thing at our own pace. Siguro, it helps that she understands the creative process. I am pretty much sure that she wasn’t some psycho slave driver in her previous life as she is the silent, nice type who’d usually surprise you with her interests and talents.
I belong to a department called "Creatives" which pretty much handle all things that needs the use of imagination and creativity. I am learning a lot of new things that I haven’t been given the chance to learn before. At the same time, there’s just too much things and experiences that I am raring to share with the group. Work is slowly starting to trickle in, and quite honestly I am starting to appreciate the nice "normalcy" that I didn’t experience on my previous department. A photoshoot and media launch is coming up in a manner of weeks and surprisingly, I look forward to the chaotic and stressful activity that looms in the week ahead.
There are a lot of interesting people: people who you’d never thought you’d meet in your lifetime, but definitely worth knowing. There are also those who you’d prefer to remain a nameless face . There are people whose talents I am immediately in awe, and whose personalities I sincerely appreciate.
Yes, there are days when the responsibilties are not yet that much, and I can finish a single proposal in 60 minutes or less (this I credit my previous company for the impeccable training given to me), or maybe even in my sleep.